why u cry?

chin was weeping when i concentrated to teach a few other students to read aloud the rhyme while she was doing her worksheet.
"Why are you crying? Are you feeling sick?"
"No..."
"Then stop crying. You almost finish your questions, please, don't cry."
I have no time to comfort her or finding out the exact reason.
The class ended just a short while after that.
While waiting the students back home, I raised my question to her again, "Why u cried?"
"Is it my loud voice scares you?"
"... " she nodded her head.

Good Article to share - "丢了翅膀，他仍是天使"

当在外地出差的我坐飞机赶回来时，十个月的儿子新新已经被推出抢救室。医生说持续的高烧也许损伤了脑神经，我要有心理准备接受可能的后遗症。

　　老公两天后才从国外回来。出院后，我们常常测试新新的听力和视觉，没有发现任何异常。我们终于放下忐忑的心。可渐渐地，我发现他开始瞪着无神的眼睛发呆，或者呈现一种令我不安的笑容。当和新新一般大的孩子开始迈着步子，清脆地喊着爸爸妈妈的时候，新新依旧呆呆坐在那里，傻傻地笑着。抱着他四处求医，结论同出一辙：新新的智力将会停留在幼儿期，除非发生奇迹。

　　那是段痛不欲生的日子，抱着孩子寻找各种可能的奇迹，秘方、偏方，甚至针灸。那长长的针如同刺在我的心尖，汗和泪伴着孩子凄厉的哭声一起落下。我多么希望这只是一场梦，梦醒后充满灵气的新新在对我甜甜地笑。我开始幻听，总感觉新新在喊妈妈。

　　我深深自责为了事业没有照顾好儿子，却不敢留在家里面对。每天下班后沉默地搂着他，日复一日，泪流尽了，心也似乎麻木了。老公也因为家里气氛沉闷，渐渐变得很少回家吃饭。

　　婆婆来看我们，说把新新带走，让我们再要一个孩子。我不假思索断然拒绝，我不能那样做!他没有选择地来到这个世界，又因为我的疏忽变成这样，已经够不幸了!把新新紧紧搂在怀里，我不要别人分享对他的爱！

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新新两周岁生日那天，我才惊觉老公已经不再陪我们一起吃饭了，怕失去他的恐慌开始噬咬着我，使我觉得难以呼吸。直至深夜，一身酒气踉踉跄跄的老公才踏进家门，我已经荒芜的泪水终于又奔涌出来。老婆，我们再要一个孩子好吗?我狠狠点着头，与他紧紧相拥，抵死缠绵……

我又怀孕了！抚着逐渐隆起的小腹，有些苦涩的甜蜜。我仿佛比谁都期待这个孩子，却又在内心里抗拒这个孩子。看到新新向我伸来的手臂，我的心又涌起巨大的痛楚：新新，这个世界，除了妈妈谁还能爱你!

　　我终于下定决心打掉这个孩子，可检查结果使我震惊：我竟然怀了双胞胎！

　　2002年的夏天，一对漂亮的小女孩阳阳和月月降临了。满月以后，那对粉雕玉琢的小人，总是甜甜地笑，很少哭闹。只要我一说话，头就随着我的声音转，让我充分享受到做妈妈的喜悦。我已经顾不上新新，无论我多么约束自己，潜意识里我已经开始忽略新新，只把他交给保姆，甚至开始讨厌他那傻傻的样子。

　　转眼，阳阳和月月会走了。新新一般不注意什么，只是对这两个妹妹格外敏感，常常注视她们的一举一动，似乎带着极大的兴趣，而且不同于平时的眼神。我是不允许他接近她们的，他只能那样在一边望着，可我控制不住阳阳和月月蹒跚迈向新新的脚步，她们同样对新新表现出极大的兴趣。而我却舍不得强迫她们什么，只是一次又一次严厉地对新新说，记住，不许碰妹妹!不许碰妹妹！渐渐地，他对我有了怯意，我却丝毫没觉得有何不妥。

　　一天，孩子们在午睡，保姆出去买菜，我去储物间整理衣物。突然听到孩子的哭声，我连忙跑进卧室，看到新新正从床的栏杆间缝向外拉月月的两根手指，手指被卡住，新新还在用力向外拉。我一把拉过新新，照着他的手，狠狠拍打，不是告诉你不许碰妹妹，不许碰妹妹吗!看你以后还碰不碰妹妹!我越打越生气，似乎在发泄对他积累的厌恶。我疯了似的寻找可以用来打他的东西，直到看见镜子里自己魔鬼一样的脸。我终于听到孩子们的哭声，终于看到蜷缩一团哭泣的新新，还有女儿们的喊叫声……

　　保姆回来了，抱起新新，看着我余怒未消的脸想说什么，我摆摆手让她抱新新回自己的房间。我哄着阳阳和月月，突然看到床上有几块动物饼干，阳阳的手里还握着一块要喂我。我连忙到月月那边，果然月月那边床下有几块饼干，已经被我踩碎了。新新最喜欢吃动物饼干，原来他拉妹妹的手是要给妹妹饼干。我的心被刺痛了，连忙到他的房间，他已经被保姆哄睡了，可还在睡梦里抽搐着。我不禁泛起一阵酸楚，我这是怎么了?我还是他的妈妈吗'

　　一天，我和女儿们玩着拥抱的游戏。我拍拍手，她们就喊着妈妈，张着小胳膊争先恐后向我跑来，然后我们紧紧拥抱。这么简单的游戏，她们却乐此不疲，一遍又一遍。忽然，新新也张开他的胳膊，向我跑来，含糊地说着，妈妈，妈妈。我简直不相信自己的耳朵!我的儿子，自从来到这个世界，从没开过口!紧紧搂住扑到怀里的新新，我哭了。已经对他沉睡的母爱被重新唤起，儿子，妈妈有多久没搂过你，妈妈对不起你！

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　　我终于开始认真思考我的孩子们，我有一个与众不同的家庭，我竟然有三个孩子！他们正渐渐长大，将来要有他们自己的人生。等我离开这个世界时，只有他们之间才能互相照顾。尤其新新，他需要好多好多的爱。

　　我不再分隔他们，而是常常告诉女儿们，要好好爱哥哥，因为没有他，就没有她们。我知道她们听不懂，我只希望她们会记住我的话。

　　我每天陪三个孩子做游戏，唱歌，跳舞，为他们讲故事。而新新，越来越有灵气，不但会叫爸爸、妹妹了，还会含糊表达自己的需要，而且会随着节奏跳些简单的舞步。看着并成一排熟睡中的孩子们，我终于相信这个世界上有奇迹，那就是爱，爱可以创造一切！

　　阳阳和月月到了上幼儿园的年龄，我也该上班了。为了减少我的负担，婆婆来商量着把新新接走。我犹豫再三，其实按新新现在的情况，勉强可以上幼儿园，可他毕竟和别的孩子不一样，我害怕来自外界给他的伤害。

　　新新被带走的那个晚上，女儿们不肯上床睡觉，一定要等哥哥回来。她们闪着漂亮的大眼睛问我，哥哥什么时候回来?为什么哥哥不上幼儿园?我的心一凛，回答她们，哥哥生病了，要好长时间才会好。她们又问。他会想我们的，为什么我们不照顾他呢?快让哥哥回来，我们会照顾他的。我的心紧了又紧，你们要乖乖的，只要你们听话，哥哥就会回来。她们终于乖乖睡下，而我在黑夜里挂念着新新。儿子，你好吗？

　　女儿们只去了三天幼儿园，就说什么也不肯去了，告诉我幼儿园里有好多好玩的玩具，还有好多的小朋友，还学习新歌，认字，英语，她们要等哥哥回来一起去。她们充满期盼的眼睛望着我，还带有小小的挑衅。我讶于她们的执拗，耐着性子哄着她们，可她们却怎么也不肯答应。我沉下脸一手抱着一个，她们哇哇哭起来，妈妈骗人，说只要我们乖，哥哥就会回来，我们都听话了，可哥哥还是没有回来!

　　我的心猛地僵住了!压抑的眼泪再也控制不住，你们的哥哥，他和别人不一样，他永远学不会那些东西!女儿们为我擦着泪，会的，会的，妈妈，哥哥能学会的，我们会帮助他的!看着她们，我感到了做妈妈的歉疚，我只会一味逃避，以为自己很爱新新，却不如孩子们充满信心去面对。

　　门铃响，竟然是婆婆送新新回来了!几天不见，新新瘦了好多。婆婆无奈地说，这几天新新几乎没吃东西，也不肯睡觉，只一直哭，喊着妹妹，妹妹。她看了心里实在难受，不得已就送回来了。

　　女儿们兴奋起来，拉着新新的手，开始讲幼儿园的事情，还催促我为新新换最漂亮的衣服，他们要一起去幼儿园。

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　　我找到园长，请求她让我的孩子们在一起。因为按照新新的年龄应该上大班，可他的智力水平还不如小班的孩子。当看到我的女儿们一边一个拉着儿子的手，并挥手和我再见的时候。我相信这个决定是对的，爱会为我们创造更多的奇迹。

　　每天从幼儿园回来，阳阳和月月都帮助新新复习一天学过的东西，而且不许我插手。我的女儿们是班里最出色的孩子，学什么都特别快，而且记得牢。我知道那是因为她们要教哥哥，所以格外用心去学习。从没看过比她们还有耐心的孩子，轮流一遍又一遍教着笨拙的新新，一个单词往往要重复好多好多遍，甚至梦里还在喃喃。每次新新学会了，她们就会欢呼起来，然后学着幼儿园老师的样子翘起大拇指说，哥哥你好棒，哥哥你真棒！而我的儿子，就看着妹妹，傻傻憨憨地笑着。

　　老师要求每个孩子学习写自己的名字，这对新新来讲简直是不可能的事情。可一个月后的一天，女儿们兴奋地拉着儿子跑来告诉我，哥哥会写自己的名字了I我将信将疑地看着儿子在纸上歪歪扭扭地写下两个大大的'新'字，尤其敖看到他们练习的本子，我小小的女儿们，竟然知道把哥哥的名字拆成笔划来教，好几个本子写着他们循序渐进的过程，我再一次被女儿们的耐心折服得泪流满面。

　　一天，我去接他们。走到教室门口，听到有个孩子喊着，你们的哥哥是个傻孩子！我一惊，连忙走进去。我示意正要阻止的老师，决定让孩子们自己去面对。只见阳阳憋红了小脸对那个孩子说，我的哥哥不是傻孩子，他是天使，他丢了翅膀，来到我们家，变成一个世界上最好的哥哥，他只不过还没习惯人间的生活。孩子们发出'哇'的惊叹声，你们的哥哥竟然是天使哎！老师含着眼泪搂过阳阳，对孩子们说，新新是我们班的天使，他会爱我们每个小朋友，还教会我们如何去爱别人。 回家的路上，我的心被女儿编织的故事激荡着。我问她们为什么那么爱哥哥，她们一起回答，因为没有哥哥就没有我们啊!忽地泪又盈满我的眼，原来她们已经牢牢记住了我的话，那么小，就学会了爱和感恩。他们是上天赐给彼此的天使，也是上天送给我最珍贵的礼物。因为他们，我才知道，做妈妈是那么值得骄傲和幸福！

Standing Out

To train the children brave enough to perform on the stage, we've asked whoever can sing in front of his/her friends and teachers, he/she will be rewarded.
At first, teacher asked for volunteering to come forward. Yew likes to present every time when teachers have the similar request; she is a keen performer.
Next, what a surprise when all the teachers see him standing up. YC is not the kind of like to show out. We all gave him a thumb when he stood up, going forward to the front. Though his singing has to be accompanied with his friends singing voices and support; but I do think that he's out standing today;)

圾啊！

他是要说：“垃圾啊！” 手里握着小小的枯萎小花，一面重复着 “圾啊！ 圾啊！”
搞懂了他说的话，我遂说：“帮忙找找垃圾桶，把它丢去垃圾桶里，好不好？”
随后他就起身前往垃圾桶的方向走过去了。看左、看右，看了好一阵子，终于找到了。丢了。
我在原地望着，边看、边笑、边默默鼓励支持。JC 有进步了。虽然说不正，可是他已会听指示，且把指示完成了也。
对2++的孩子而言，这并不简单哦。

why hurry?

I've been supervise Marc for his schoolworks about 1 week.
His mother keep complain that his homework had not finish yet though he was under my supervisions; his writing still messy and mistakes somewhere here and there.
he is a primary student, and I think that he should learn to discipline himself about his schoolwork. I don't really take out each and every of his books to check; but I asked him to check his books. It was my mistake, I trusted in his word the 1st time he said that he had already put all his homework in one side after I asked him to do so, it was my mistake too to allow his messy works that were done as in a hurry, and I was false I didn't make sure he checks each and every of his books every time during my supervision.
I've learn some 'lessons' from the past. Today onwards, I'll make sure that I do my part and he does his part.
"Do your work slowly, neatly and carefully; so that you can done it nicely without any redo. You can save your time and energy as well; don't you want these?"

a,a,a!

When he sees me, he knows that I'll be teaching them Chinese phonics on the day.
It's like a routine; even I didn't ask them to, but the reverse: he ask me to play him the "a,a,a!" songs (phonics songs).
Even they can't say the words, or sing them out completely, but I know they've learn them through their listening of the rhymes and songs.

Zhe tears my flashcard

You can guess why he tore my card. He was upset, angry.
Today he didn't join us in the phonics class. I thought he would like some games, so i asked him to join during the game session.
Unexpectedly, he still refused to join and he tore my card to show his anger.
I have to keep reminding myself that "never ever force the kids to do the things they don't want to do."
After school, we have Smart class. Zhe also not cooperate at 1st, but he was better temper comparing to the morning class. He read to me, and he finished his worksheet as well.Do you know what I deal with him? "Promise me you'll finish your work after you play the puzzle, okay?"

I like Smart Reader!

It was time to say "Goodbye".
We normally have Smart Reader Class after school, except Friday.
Kimi has her Smart class on Tuesday and Thursday. Since yesterday was holiday, This week she only attended a class on Tuesday.
After school today, she acted like normal Smart Reader days, ready to took her bag to class.
"Kimi, your grandpa is waiting."
"Oh.."
Then she reversed her steps to the gate.
"You've forget that today is Friday, isit?"
"I like Smart Reader class, teacher."
Hehe, I bet she likes my teaching of Smart.
I finally have a bit of confidence of my teaching;)

playing dough

We played dough today.
The kids like it so much,
And we got dirty hands.
The time to wash our hands. He 'cincai' washed and went away, and rushed for the slide.
I saw his hands, the dough still stuck in his fingernails!!
"Come, wash your hand thoroughly clean, then you may continue to play."
He still refused to.
"You know what... If your nail still stuck with dirty stuff, bacterias will bite your hand, your hands may get hurt and pain..."
"Ooo... bacterias bite."
After listened to my exaggerated explanation, finally he followed me to the washroom.

noisy vs quiet

Principal just back from a trip of visiting Kindergartens in Nanjing.
"The kids there are quiet, the teacher talks so softly even i can't hear it, but the kids can hear,"
"Why the kids here are so monster and devil here?"

"Who is your friend?"

"Al, can you tell me who are your friends?"
"My friend is my daddy."
"How about your sister? Do you friend with her?"
"No, she always scolds me."
"Your mummy is your friend not?"
"No, she always scolds me too."

chinese kiasu?!

we play 'giant' ball today.
"hold the handler of the ball, and jump, jump, jump."
not many of them dare to try it. They scared of falling down.
Teacher Chong described Chinese child as 'protected-child', because of parents scaring their kids hurt during plays, they don't have a chance to play variety of games.
The children themselves consequently become passive in plays.
Among our kids, Farah was brilliant. She managed to control and balance in a glance of time. There are only 2 Chinese tried. A boy and a girl. The girl is kind of kiasu lang. She tried after seeing all her friends tries. But she did good and careful. The boy is playful type. He has the heart to challenge himself, and not scares of falling. That's wonderful of him.
3 of them take turns to jump the ball. They jump, jump, and jump many times, again and again, getting more and more enjoy playing with it without tiring.

我是无赖

CY吵着我要到玩具室开音乐 - 他最爱的歌 - "恭喜"。
因为还在上着Number，所以我想尽办法delay他的要求。
“好。先kiss我这里。”
“不是这样的kiss，我要‘muak’一声的kiss。”
“另外一边也要个kiss。”
“嗯...”
"okay，等姐姐写完了字，我们就去。"

他差一点就等不下去了。为了圆他的梦，最后，I did what I had promised.

我以貌取人？

我所谓的以貌取人，是我发觉自己会对孩子们的偏心。
铠眼睛像娃娃般， 即使他怠慢无力，我还是爱对着他。
悦做事有条理，唯是他声响不断的声音，让我对他有骂有赞。
小特特的笑容可掬，即使是他犯了错，错都被融入笑容里了，我的心也随之被软化了。
还有很多的例子， 就是特皮的、特差的、特乖的等等印象较深刻。
至于那些样貌不出众的，都被我平平待过，没有特别的爱与不爱。

bang himself again!!

Yesterday he bang himself to the pillar, caused a big bump near his eye.
Today, already told him to be careful; and i kept repeating to him that he's not allowed to play outside.
He refused to take a nap, i knew he was tired.
He saw his brother opened the gate, he dash out like a bird getting free, and he can't see what was in front of his way. "Bang!" straight to the pillar. "Ooo... Told you."
He was quiet after then. I had him sat in front of me, in my arms.
"Are you sure you don't wanna have a nap?"
"I want now."
"okay, nap for a while while waiting for mummy,"
an he fell asleep in my arms with his sitting pose.

行为结果

让孩子体会“自然与逻辑的行为结果”是最好纠正他们不当及问题的行为。尤其是固执型的顽皮，我会觉得是他活该的。
Gareth今天糊涂乱撞了好几次。
无端端跟在我后面，结果自己跌倒了。
母亲来接他的前几分钟，整个周围都变得静了，事有不妥：原来他和朋友玩得疯狂忘形，撞向石柱！ 整个脸侧明显一条痕。他没哭；反而母亲心疼透了：“不该给他玩啊！... ...”
难道把他困在室里会比较好？